She makes up a story about Louise, who she is and where she's from, and while tending to her hair, ' I pretended that the comb was a magic comb, and that it was untangling all the knots in her life. She adopts a street mom, Louise Palmer, who wears an ID tag around her neck, as ' her ticket into a shelter'. As ' a minor w/o a parent' she's not allowed in shelters. I'm a gypsy!' She takes refuge in an ' amazing library' where she reads and sleeps.Īccording to Holly, having a great day is not getting The Look from people. the night of the living dead'! She muses, ' This isn't the 'City of Angels', it is more like 'Hell On Earth'.' Holly spends nights with other homeless folk under a bridge, where she claims ' I'm not homeless. After many hours and stops, the Greyhound reaches Los Angeles, where all she sees is cement-and-graffiti, and desert. Traveling by city bus, as a stowaway in a horse trailer, she then walks the railway tracks, and performs quite a feat as she climbs a tree, hangs from a branch waiting for a railcar headed west, and jumps onto an open-top railcar full of potatoes.Īt a station, Holly climbs unnoticed into the luggage hold of a bus traveling to California.
But this time she's determined it is for good. I won't get belief - I'll get 'you're just looking for trouble'.' So Holly runs away, something she's done before.
It is cold - and not the real room they show social services. The Benders lock her in the laundry room, with one blanket. Holly's dad died in an accident somewhere, mom died from shooting up, and a driving thought with Holly is ' It's a cold, hard, cruel fact that my mother loved heroin more than she loved me.' In her (current) fifth foster home with the Benders, the Mr. Leone for what she is about to do - ' RUNAWAY', commenting ' it's all your fault'. She writes, ' You think you know what I'm going through, you think you know how I can 'cope', but you're just like everybody else: clueless.' And from there on she blames Ms. This May 17th entry begins her journaling experiences. Though Holly thinks journaling is idiotic, she writes: ' Prisoner / Chained outside / Shivering, huddling, sobbing / Naked in the rain / Alone'. Leone gives Holly a journal, with the assignment to ' Put your most embarrassing experience in the form of a cinquain poem'. At twelve-years-old Holly Janquel has already lived a life of turmoil and pain.
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